Untitled (Beyrouth)


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the queer subject is

refusing to return for fear of repression
returning as an outsider and insider
belonging and not
tourist and participant
blood without language

who am i to critique? 
how am i to voice?

perhaps as a witness
to record the marks left upon the city
upon myself
here we live with our scars ever present

but every action and every moment is political
fucking in a car is political
meeting men online
meeting men in cars
fooling around in the dark corners of the city
cumming in the car
camming in the bedroom

expulsion brings us the freedom to choose our identity
refusal becomes a generative act

we learn that lines are blurry
bodies slippery
and spaces fleeting